Parent Life
12th June 2017

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It has been a while.  It truly has.  I can’t say for all the moms out there but for me, it IS a thing … MOM life.  I admit, I don’t have as much of a social life as I would like to have but I don’t care.  It’s been worth it.  I have learned over the past year the importance of having as much time with your child as much as you can.  Now that I am back at work, I miss being near my son and just seeing him laugh and smile which makes the end of the work day all the better.  I have something to look forward to.  I get to go home to my family.

I was pretty excited to go back to work though.  As much as I LOVE being around my son all the time, I still needed my “ME” time.  It’s very important that each mother gets it.  For me, I still needed that sense of identity outside of being a mother.  My job is that because I really do genuinely enjoy my work and the company I work for.  It’s “my thing” I guess.  I really don’t have much time for my hobbies and other interests anymore so having to be able to go to work and do my own thing is great.  I enjoy having my drive to work with a nice cup of coffee and listening to my music during my commute in the mornings.

My husband and I are quite lucky that we are able to both work and provide for our family as sometimes, thinking of childcare can be quite daunting for some.  We are soooo fortunate that our schedules work out and that we have Grandma to help out as well.  My husband now works evening shifts while I work mornings. There’s a good and bad but it works.  The good is that my husband gets to have his bonding times with baby G in the mornings since he works later in the day.  He feeds him, changes and clothes him, they have walks in the morning and sometimes he’ll bring Baby G to our complex gym so he gets a workout while my son plays.  He’s always sending me sweet funny videos of our son and what he’s up to or learning everyday just so I don’t miss out.  He drops off our son to Grandma before he heads to work and in a couple of hours later, I am off work so I get to pick him up and we have our bonding times together in the evenings and have our bedtime routines together.  So we each get to have our time with him.  The downfall is that my husband and I don’t really get to see each other much during the week since he gets home late and I am already so tired that I’m passed out before he gets home.  At least we get weekends though.  Weekends are our FAMILY DAYS.  It could something as simple as spending the day doing groceries but it’s still FAMILY DAY.  It’s so special to us because it’s our time together to make up for a whole work week of not being able to spend any time together.  It’s these little things that matter so much and we love it so so much.

We don’t forget our families and friends though.  We are so lucky to have such great family and friends.  We live farther away now but we still all see each other all the time.  Our bestfriends visit us almost every weekend because we always like to hold UFC nights at our place.  A night of fun eats and drinks, they usually end up sleeping over so it’s always so much fun.  I can’t express enough how much I love those two.  No matter what, they are always there for us even though we live farther away now.  They are pretty much family.  My husband and my best friend, Miss K, are pretty much brother and sister.  Her boyfriend is our son’s Godfather.  We have stuck around for years and years and I can’t even begin to tell you how much they have been there for us and we have been there for them.  They are family.  Some people think friends are something else but for me .. NOPE.  THEY ARE MY FAMILY.  Love you guys!

I really do want to blog more.  I find myself always wanting to share tid bits of my mom life but nowhere or no one to share them to.  So I figured, why not use my blog?

 




Things To Do
3rd November 2016

Baby, family, holidays, homelife, life, memories, thoughts, Uncategorized, weight | 3 comments

Well hello there November. October, you were so much fun with all the great “first” experiences for my son but I have to say I have been looking forward to November.

WHY NOVEMBER?

Okay it’s not November so much as it’s officially the holidays! I am seriously itching to decorate the house in Christmas decorations. Of course though, not until AFTER November 11, because of Remembrance Day. LEST WE FORGET. Have to show respect.

I want to finally deck out our place for the holidays especially now. I love this new place of ours and we deserve to finally feel the joys of Christmas. I can’t wait to go out shopping with baby G and Hubby in search of the perfect decor.  Hubby wgot his wish this year and bought a pencil tree.  it’s his dream tree. I have never seen him so excited. He says I can decorate however I want though so I’m trying to get some ideas and decide on what colour scheme to do.

OTHER EVENTS?

I am trying to figure out what to do for baby G’s christening. I have seriously procrastinated on it and now I think it’s too late to do it this year. But … I talked with Hubby about it and I am deciding o keep it simple and just have  family dinner at our house for it rather than have the typical big party.  It is a religious family thing anyway so I think it’s better to keep it that way.  We will save his BIG HUGE ASS PARTY for his birthday! That, I think people will appreciate more outside of a religious thing.

Speaking of birthdays, it will be my nephew/God son’s 1st birthday next month!! Thats another thing I am looking forward to and I am really really trying to look for a great birthday gift but it’s hard!! 

SINCE TITLE IS “THINGS TO DO”

I have to add exercise and better diet to my to-do list. I am gaining even MORE weight and it’s already depressing enough that I can’t get rid of my pregnancy weight. I have been lazy and became a bit of a hermit for a little while because of the cold and rainy days lately so my activity level was low. During the summer I would be out every day with Baby G cruising the malls and doing grocery shopping and we would be out for hours! Now not so much. so even if the weather is shit  outside,I still should be able to do some exercising inside even it means only doing 5 push up if Baby G’s naps are super short. SOMETHING!! I’m tired of being fat again!! I miss my old body!

NOW BEFORE I GO, I CAUGHT ME A PIKACHU!!

Baby G as Pikachu For Halloween

 




Flying Through
24th October 2016

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I know this is such a cliché thing to say as everyone says this to a point of exhaustion at any point of the year but… Time Is Flying By. I don’t know if it’s the sleep deprivation, exhaustion, hormones or what but it’s giving me anxiety. 

I lay here next to my sleeping son trying to say to myself, “it’s been over 7 months now. I’ve been watching my son grow for 7 months now”.  I sometimes can’t even remember how small he was back in March but here he is, probably closer to 16 pounds, trying to learn how to crawl, finally eating food other than breastmilk, realizing he always laughs at the exact same commercial, and knows what it means to kiss mama and papa as he lays a big fat drooly one on my cheek. 7 months ago, all he did was suck boob, sleep, poop and cry. 

So this means I only have 5 months left until he has lives a full year of his life and for me to enjoy every second of it before I head back to work. I have to enjoy him taking his first steps, eating his first real meal that’s not pureed with his hands with half of it on the floor, his first real word, anything and everything that is part of watching my son grow up. 

This is a bittersweet anxiety I’m realizing. A very “so many things to do with so little time” kind of thing. I feel like I don’t want to miss a thing. I don’t want to miss a milestone. I want to plan so many trips with the time I have. We wanted to take him to Whistler or take his first trip to Portland. Shit, we still have to do his Baptism which was something we were supposed to do 2 months ago. This is his first Halloween, his first Christmas. I want to take him to his first pumpkin patch, his first Stanley Park train ride… the list goes on.  

Once I’m back at work, time is limited. Especially now that we moved out a little further, by the time I get home from work I have a few hours to spend time with him  then it’s bedtime. Unlike now, I am with him 24 hours a day. It makes me feel stupid sometimes about complaining how  tired I am and that I am done with all this because I know I’m going to miss all this.im going to miss being with my son. 

The other side of the anxiety is the actual preparation of going back to work. My son actually decided he doesn’t like bottles anymore and only breastfeeds so I have to somehow train him to drink out of a sippy cup or straw cup before work starts. Or figuring out how to leave him for more than a couple of hours without him freaking out. Better yet, who am I going to leave him with?! Daycare is so fucking expensive but Grandmas are still working so it’s not like I can leave him with one of them. 

So as days go by, many thoughts are running though my mind and it’s kinda scary. The best I can do is enjoy the “now” and see what happens. The most important thing right now is to enjoy the time I have with my son and to grow with him because I’m growing too as a mother. I have my loving husband too so we will just grow through it as a family. 

I have a family and I love them.

 




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