Almost 30
28th May 2015

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Wow. Almost the end of May and it’s almost June!! 19 more days until my birthday! I’m turning the big 3-0. I’m somewhat indifferent about it. As much as I say “age ain’t nothing but a number”, it’s still hard to believe sometimes that I’m going to be 30. At least I don’t look 30 LOL. People still think I’m 25 but that’s Asian genes for you. If you think I look young, you should see my Mom. That lady does not look like she could be close to 60. She gets carded at the casino because they think she has a fake senior’s discount card. Oh life. I guess I got my mother’s genes (well I guess my dad too – he looks very young for his age as well) and it doesn’t help that I pretty could look my mom’s twin. Everyone thinks I’m her younger sister for the most part. Kudos to my mom for that. I love my mom.

Anyways, I don’t feel any different being close to 30. Of course, there’s the joke that you start to feel like an old person once you are past 25. I agree with that LOL. I mean, I can’t stay up at late anymore. I think just last year, I was up until 4am one night and I have to say … I just can’t see myself doing that ever again. I just don’t have the energy for that kind of thing anymore. It is crazy to think though that back in my early twenties, staying up til 2am/4am was NOTHING. I could do it every weekend no problem and still have energy to do many other things. It really shows that aging really does change your lifestyle habits no matter how good you feel or how you think nothing has changed you. Yes, I admit now to the more occurring back aches, fatigue, “can’t stay up past 11pm” syndrome.

My mom always said to me, “you think you can handle things now like smoking and staying up until the very late hours but you wait. Once you hit a certain older age, it will come back to haunt you. You will start to feel everything you did to your body back in the day like it’s revenging on you”.

Well played, Mom.

I am looking forward to my birthday though. I haven’t planned anything special. As I got older, celebrating my birthday with big parties and such hasn’t interested me much. I was always happy to just call up my closest friends and have an intimate dinner at a restaurant somewhere which I might just do this time around again. I know my husband is going to be taking me out to this restaurant in the States that I have been wanting to try for a while now. His family might come along too since his mom’s birthday is the day before mine so it will be fun!!!

 




Roller Coaster
1st May 2015

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I am quite alive in a sense. April was a crazy month. It had a lot of ups and downs that I feel spent and exhausted. Work is a part of that all on its own. When they hired me, they warned me that it was a high volume job and holy shit they were not kidding.

Every day is a roller coaster. It’s so busy with many different elements, duties, perspectives, inputs and outputs… Apparently our department has quite the reputation of having hard work because of all the things we do. I’m not complaining though. I don’t mind it. It keeps me busy. It helps me keep my mind off other things I constantly think about and it just makes the day fly by so fast. Plus, constant busy days is a good sign for a company so at least that way I know I’m working for a successful company that’s has been and will be going on for years to come. Did I mention before that I was only hired as a 1 year contract? Well that’s changed. A couple of weeks ago, I was offered a permanent position!! So I am quite happy about that. That was a major highlight in the past month. It was a relief to be honest. As thankful as I was to even have an opportunity to even be working for a whole year, I was not looking forward to finding another job after that 1 year. Now I know I don’t have to go through the stress of trying to find another job especially since finding a job these days is pretty difficult. I am thankful. Very thankful and I thank God for blessing me with a good job. This company is amazing and I hope to be here for a very long time and make a good career here.

The downs of my month? A part of me doesn’t even want to say. I feel like if I talk about it the more the bad feelings linger in my body especially when I have to keep my head up high and be strong. Let’s just say that being an adult sucks sometimes. Having all these responsibilities makes me wish I was a child again where all I would worry about us what my next toy could be and getting home in time after school to watch my favourite cartoons. But in the light of it all, what I am thankful for is having supportive people around me. People who care, make me laugh and show me there’s so much more to life than all the bad things we adults go through. To those people, you don’t even know how much I love you and cherish you.

One thing I am excited about is the summer. My husband and I are trying to plan a camping trip this August with my best friend and her boyfriend. I haven’t been camping in almost 8 years!!! I’m excited to ride the ferry to the island, have a campfire, make smores, maybe do a little drinking, do some fishing, sleeping in a tent, having a beautiful mountain/sea view, have some good laughs with my friends and my husband… I’m really really looking forward to it. Plus it will be around the time of our 1 year wedding anniversary!!! So that’s a milestone I’m looking forward to as well!!

So I just need to keep working hard and it will make waiting for some special days all the more worth it.

What are you guys looking forward to that you could really need right now in this cruel world?