It JUST Hit Me
11th July 2014
life, memories, rant, SO, thoughts, wedding | 2 comments

Life’s been busy and hectic, hence the MIA. This wedding has been good and bad and I am at a point where I wish the day would just come so I won’t have to deal with anymore bullshit, drama, stress, and work. I just want to wear my dress, get pampered and get married already! 50 more days though. It’s coming up close. It’s scary. It’s nerve-wracking. It’s exciting. It’s surreal …

I had my first wedding dress fitting last week and I think it just hit me at that point, staring at myself in this beautiful wedding dress, veil, tiara, the whole she-bang, that I’m getting married. I never really thought the day would ever come. I was always the type of girl who hated commitment. As soon as someone would get too close, I pull away because I didn’t want to be tied down. I didn’t want to be a “girlfriend” with all these responsibilities, commitments, obliged tasks to another human being that I didn’t know as well as myself or my family or closest friends that I’ve stuck through for years and years. As selfish as it sounds, I didn’t want to bother to extensively know someone new. I was always the single one, the one who could do whatever she wanted, the third or fifth wheel and I didn’t give a shit. I always figured I would be married SUPER SUPER young or SUPER SUPER old or never at all. I guess I found myself a happy medium.

Now look at me … I’m marrying a guy who I have been with for 8 years (wow that’s almost a whole decade), I’m well in love with him and his family, I know him to a “T” and he actually knows me better than I know myself. Something about him drew me in and I couldn’t look away. I couldn’t stay away. That part of me that was so scared to love and that part of me that didn’t want to let go of her inhibitions and love-less freedom actually DID. I guess that’s when you know you’re hooked and a part of me always knew, not too long into the relationship, that he’s the one I’m going to be spending the rest of my life with. Is that crazy? Am I crazy or is it just me? Love is crazy … PERIOD.

Anyways, planning is almost pretty much done. The only things left I really need to hunt down is a limo and a musician for our wedding ceremony. Other than that, it’s little details like making the necessary stationary like place cards, the seating chart, programs, etc. What is the death of me though? Fucking RSVPs. I sent out my invitations in April with a RSVP deadline of July 15th, which is in 4 days. How many people do I need to track down because they haven’t given me a decision in 4 freaking months???? 45. 45 freaking people still haven’t responded. That’s a lot of people to call, e-mail, text, Facebook message. Thank goodness my deadline is well ahead of my wedding date or else I would be going “bridezilla” during wedding month which I refuse to be because that’s hilariously absurd and just plain stupid. Sometimes though, you can’t help it. I find weddings bring out the true colors in people. You start to know who the true friends and supporters are and who are there to just get a free meal and a day pass to drink and party regardless of a special occasion of a union of two people. I am lucky to have such wonderful girlfriends who have stuck with me on this whole wedding 100%. They’ve been on top of everything … every little request, detail, time, rant and vent. Makes my whole outlook on friendship even stronger because so far they are the only ones that have been real. Make this a lesson to all of you out there, you may have many many many friends but who will actually be there for you when you really need it in a drop of hat? I can count with only one hand who will for me and it’s those people that I will cherish for the rest of my life and who deserves my undivided attention and love (and I already explained how I am picky on who I love).

On to happier things, I got my first make-up trial in June, JUST in time for my 8-year anniversary dinner with my future hubby. It’s our very last “regular” anniversary before we get married so we wanted to do something special. He took me out to this place called Hy’s Steakhouse Bar and Cocktail. It’s actually one of those high-end fancy restaurants that you see in the movies. I say this because the moment I sat down in my comfy, very elaborate upholstered chair I said, “OMG. I feel like I’m in a fancy movie scene”. The lights were dim, candle lights on the table, perfectly folded napkins, REAL sterling silverware, everyone around were dressed as if they were attending a wedding. The servers walked around briskly with their heads held high in white coats with a white napkin/towel(?) hanging off their forearm, refolding our napkins every 5 minutes if they see it’s not being used; as soon as you finish using your spoon, there’s a brand new one; they even poured your wine like they do in the movies, leaning the bottle against their forearm as they poured ever so carefully into your wine glass. Do I even dare mention the prices of the meals?? Let’s just say, with just the two of us, we walked out of there having just paid $200 for our dinner. I tried very hard not to make my jaw drop (for the sake that it’s “faux-pas” hahahahhahahah), and my heart cringed. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?!?!? It was worth it!! I have to say the food was AMAZING!!!! It was incredible and I can see why this place is so high end. You get what you paid for.

It’s a once in a lifetime experience. I had never done it before. It was nice for us to get dressed up and dolled up and we had a fun time so it was worth it. Plus it was our last anniversary and my hubby wanted us to do something special since we have been holding back a lot of doing fun stuff because of the wedding so we splurged a little. We deserved it. I don’t think I can ever do it again but I’m glad I got to cross something off my “bucket” list.

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There’s us after dinner taking some selfies since we are all done up and pretty.

Straying away from my original topic, I had my first makeup trial just in time for my anniversary dinner. My makeup artist said this trial will show just what she can do and her duty for this trial was to show her talents and to make me look sexy for my special dinner. I have 2 trials left and those will be more geared towards how I actually want to look on my wedding day. But … here’s my before and after picture of what she did for me. OMG she’s amazing. I am sooooo happy to find a makeup artist that knows exactly what she’s doing.

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What do you guys think? I’m pretty excited. I can confidently say I’m going to look hot at my wedding HAHAHHAH. Now to lose 10 pounds … then I’m set.

2 Responses to “It JUST Hit Me”

  1. Cat says:

    It’s interesting how finding the right person can change us 🙂 I used to be the type that wasn’t sure if I wanted a long term relationship, and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to be married either. Now here I am married to someone I’ve been with for 9 years. It’s kind of crazy when I think about it, haha.

    I can’t believe so many people haven’t responded yet! I feel like it’s inconsiderate to not respond. After all, it’s important that you know your numbers for your vendors and such. Good luck getting a response from all of them!

    Wow, that restaurant sounds really nice. It seems like a great place to celebrate your anniversary before your wedding! As long as it was worth it, then you might as well splurge a bit 😀 Your make-up artist did a great job too! You look beautiful!

  2. nyuu says:

    You’re so pretty! I’m still that girl that doesn’t wanna be tied down 😛 But I’m glad you found someone who is worth being “tied” down 😀

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