Throwback Thursday – Weight
17th October 2013
life, thoughts, weight | 15 comments

[SIDE] Before I forget — I just want to say … HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!! LOVE YOU!! [/SIDE]

Left: 2011 | Right: Current

Here is my story on my weight issues and weight has always been a very sensitive subject for me because I have been through a lot with it.

I started as a skinny kid but when I hit about 10, I plumped and I didn’t know why. I got made fun of, yes. I even had an aunt sadly tell me to stop going to the fridge or else I’ll never have a boyfriend (she even told me once that I would never have a boyfriend because of my weight). Once I hit highschool, I dropped the weight. Lost “baby fat” I guess you could call it. I started gaining weight again by the time I was 16. It was always fluctuating for a few years until I hit college.

THIS WAS MY PRIME TIME. I was maybe about 120 pounds, wore size 2 jeans, wore XS shirts, I was active, I was social, I had confidence. It was also around this time I met my fiance. Looking back at old pictures of when we just started dating … Wow … I was tiny and always told myself that I would NEVER EVER get back to that again. Little did I know that I could at least come close.

As the years went on, weight was creeping up on me. I didn’t know why. Was I getting to comfortable? Was I getting lazy? Could be a number of things but it was escalating and it was escalating quick. By the end of 2011, I was managed to get myself up to almost 153 pounds. Mind you I’m a short little Asian thing. I was pretty big for my height and size. None of my original clothes fit (even the bigger sized ones). The only things that fit were sweatpants and the oversized shirts I would wear to sleep. I had to go shopping for bigger clothes or borrow them from my mom. I admit … I even had to wear a few maternity clothes because they were the only things that would fit at the time. It was horrifying to me to see myself buy pants that were 6x my original size. I had to buy Size 12 pants (and they were still SNUG because I would force myself into them due to denial of fitting into something bigger). What had happened to me? I still couldn’t figure it out how I managed to let myself go that badly.

My fiance, last year, also got fed up with his weight. A friend invited him to the gym to try out a few exercises because he was contemplating getting back into shape. Bam! Since day 1, he never stopped. He kept going. He was serious. He exercised every day, ate the right food, made a few sacrifices and managed to lose 15 pounds in a month. Overall, up to this day, he has lost almost 50 pounds, had abs, biceps, triceps, lats, the whole works. Let’s just say he has gotten some serious attention from other women that I was not too happy about (HAHA). Because of his motivation and beginning results, that helped me realize that I should start working on myself too. I didn’t want to be jealous of him! I wanted to work hard just like him! What’s the point in making myself feel bad about being with someone who looks incredible? Go sulk or do something about it!!

Of course it wasn’t just a looks thing. I noticed A LOT of things that went wrong with me and my weight gain. One thing is my breathing. I noticed my breathing patterns have changed. I sounded like I could barely breathe half the time. I was always out of breath. I was getting very lazy. All I wanted to do was stay home, watch TV and eat junk food ( you wouldn’t believe how many McDonalds runs I would do a week). My self-confidence was so low that I put a damper on our relationship because I never felt good enough for my fiance. It just affected a lot of things in my life and I didn’t want to go through all that anymore. I was scared for myself and where I was going.

So I started running. I would take runs starting from dawn in the park behind our house. I started work-out videos (TAPOUT XT was my absolute favourite and what worked for me). I started to eat healthier. I cut out any from of pop and cut down on my sugar ( I don’t have such a big sweeth tooth anymore). I started my own results in about a month. My very first happy moment was when I was doing homework on the dining room table and my fiance walks in and says, “Has your arms gotten smaller? HOLY SHIT they are!” Oh yeah. That made me feel good. Progressively, I kept going. I worked out 4 days a week, ran every other day and kept my diet clean. Overall, I lost almost 30 pounds. I’m back down to a size 6 and luckily I didn’t throw out any of my original clothes because I fit in most of them again! So at least I never had to go shopping hahah. Saved me money there LOL.

So I feel great and healthier. People are amazed that I was able to keep up with the exercise and a lot of them are determined now to start themselves because they look at my fiance and I and they are FLOORED. So it’s very possible people to get back to where you used to be. I mean I’ll never be a Size 2 again but hey … I’m pretty damn close enough to say I’m happy about myself. I can finally look at myself in the mirror and smile at myself. I’m not as lazy anymore (well I’m still lazy but a procrastinating lazy … you know what I mean haha). My fiance and I have more energy for each other now and have a stronger relationship for supporting each other during our journey.

If you are struggling with your weight, take this as a form of motivation. I’m just a simple girl who went through many issues too. I’m nothing special but trust me … IF I CAN DO THIS … SO CAN YOU.

15 Responses to “Throwback Thursday – Weight”

  1. Amy says:

    Good on you for keeping up the motivation and able to motivate others too!! Proud of you girlie!!

    I would like to go running but as always, I never want to do it alone. I guess I could drag my housemate to come with me since she wants to shed some pounds, but we’re both busy bees. I’ve signed myself up for TKD this year and have been going twice a week and have only missing a couple of lessons. It’s a great workout and can help tone the muscles. Although I need to be more flexible to kick higher!

    Keep up the good work and loving the healthy lifestyle 🙂 I don’t know if I can cut out all the sugars though. I have such a sweet tooth and love my desserts as you’ve noticed hahaha.

    P.S. Would you like to follow each other on BlogLovin’ and/or link exchange sweetie? xxx

    • Shar says:

      That is so awesome that you are doing TKD! I have always wanted to join that but my parents couldn’t afford it when I was younger and I can see why! It’s pretty expensive here in Vancouver. In the future I want to take some kind of martial art though. Keep it up!!!

      I would love to follow each other on Bloglovin’! I’ll add you to my exchange links too 🙂

  2. Nancy says:

    Your story sounds insparational. It goes to show that your body has the ability to do many things and it’s possible to get yourself back in shape despite the circumstances. Power to you and your fiance for losing weight and be fit!

    There are so many benefits in losing weight, and hey! You do save money from being able to wear all of your nice clothes again! As long as you’re more confident about your body now than before, you’re good to go 🙂

    Good luck with your future journey!

  3. Cat says:

    Wow, awesome job! Losing 30 lbs is a lot, and you look great. I’m currently trying to lose some weight (I gained some over the years too), and I love hearing success stories like this 🙂 It really is motivating. I’m glad you kept up with the exercise and feel healthier because of it!

  4. Bonnie says:

    This is a great story! Losing weight and getting healthy takes a lot of motivation. I’m so happy for you 🙂 I’m trying to be more healthy and feel better about myself but my motivation is lacking… it really takes a lot of strength mentally and physically. This was a great read before bed, I may just have to wake up to go to the gym early tomorrow!

    • Shar says:

      Thanks so much! It really does take a lot of mental and physical strength. It was not easy being motivated everyday. But once you start to see results it’s hard to stop!

  5. Light says:

    Wow, congrats on all of your success! I’ve fluctuated with my weight since middle school myself and I’m at my highest weight now. UGH! I’ve lost the weight before, but it’s so hard for me to get and stay motivated with all the stress I have in my life right now… school, work, my own business… excuses, I know. Thanks for sharing your inspirational story and photos! 🙂

  6. Krystal says:

    Well done on keeping up with it!

    Women will find that it’s easier to put on weight to older you get. Can’t be eating all those sweeties like we when we were young.

    I struggle with motivation but I don’t have a weight problem…but I am noticing that I am getting chubbier without eating more than I use to. I don’t even eat sweets and chocolate. I think it’s just aging and it’s easier for our body to put on weight. I find it really hard to keep going when exercising, I guess I get bored of doing the same thing over and over again. I’m trying to find a sport my boyfriend and I can play together regularly.

  7. Kelly says:

    Wow, what a very open post! I too have struggled with the up and downs of weightloss over the years. Congratulations on the remarkable weight loss – sometimes all you need is a GOOD support system to help you start out. (I struggled with motivation, but having a boyfriend who wanted to lose weight helped immensely). You look just as stunning in both pictures, but I can only begin to imagine how great and accomplished you feel!

  8. moni says:

    Wow I’m so impressed. I was the same. I’ve always been a chubbybgirl and my weight goes up and down. Up when I slack off. In hs I had lost 90lbs by senior year . I maintained that for most of college then it went back up. I’m recently going back to my fav size 5 but its harder now since I lack motivation. I should do some before and afters :/ would love to discuss this more with you sometime maybe over fb or email 🙂

    • Shar says:

      Yeah that would be awesome! I would love to see some before and after pictures! It’s always nice to talk to someone who went through the same as me because weight has always been a big issue for me! E-mail me!

  9. Stephanie says:

    As someone who has a similar success story, *fist bump*! There’s nothing like a significant other to motivate you along. (My boyfriend wanted to lose weight together with me. I was hesitant at first and then decided to do it.)

  10. This post is really really inspiring! I too was once fit but after my pregnancy when I was 19 all the baby weight didnt seem to go away AND my baby fats. There were days when I exercised but then whenever I looked at my body in a full length mirror instead of wanting to get rid of all the excess fat I seem to just GIVE UP. Now, I’m pregnant again lol. And I’m currently around 180lbs but I am determined to work out once I give birth cause like you mentioned breathing has been difficult plus I have asthma which makes it worse. My husband keeps telling me I look beautiful nonetheless but heyyy I too would so love to get into outfits I once dared to wear lol. Thanks for sharing this Shar! It will serve as an inspiration for sure!!

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