Creativity Sitting
26th February 2015
art, life, memories, thoughts | 1 comment

I have been sitting in front of my laptop here, editing away on photos I took from my niece’s first birthday party.  I have to say it felt incredible to hold a camera again.  It feel so good, so at home.  It’s been so long since my creativity ran through my body.  Again, it feels great to be able to sit here and continue the process by editing them since I have a love for being on my photoshop/lightroom programs.  I just hope my sister and brother-in-law love them.  This is after all their memories that were captured.  A momentous milestone in their lives, seeing and experiencing their very first child turn a year old.  I was so happy for them and for the rest of the family.  To experience the first grandchild, niece, daughter go through a memorable point in their lives was a great way to also indulge myself in capturing these moments doing something I love.

My niece's first birthday

My niece’s first birthday

Her Bday Smash CupCake

Her Smash (Cup)Cake

The Dessert Table

Helping set up her Dessert Table

This got me to thinking about my hobbies and how much I have neglected them.  I should have no excuses but that’s easier said than done.  Life did get in the way.  Having responsibilities, commitments, that job of being an adult does get in the way of things I love and it’s hard.  I think everyday about drawing this or taking a photo of that and I never got around to it.  It’s sad.  Now that I have some time to myself, you think I would have been able to do more of it now but job hunting is another responsibility that is a priority and again my creativity has been put in the back burner.

I want to put my camera to better use.  I want to go out and take as many photos as possible and finally get my goal of setting up my photography website out.  Eventually, I hope to achieve my dream of becoming a freelance photographer taking photos of special events like engagement photos, weddings, parties, etc.  I just need to commit to these things.  I need motivation, I need time, I need patience.  I will one day do all these things and one day I will be a professional photographer.

It’s not just photography though.  I also have a passion for drawing.  I haven’t drawn in ages.  When I started organizing and cleaning my office, I found my old sketchbooks and my, my … how many empty pages there are.  It clearly showed that my art had taken a very long hiatus and I hated myself for it.  I don’t want to force it though.  There’s no use in sitting there with a pencil and sketchbook in my hands, forcing myself to draw something.  When I draw, I want it to be good and not to just compensate for my guilt.  I did purposely put my sketchbook on my desk in the open for me to see everyday as a way for me to never forget that they are there. Maybe one day I will actually be inspired to draw something again if I see my lonely sketchbook sitting there on the table surrounded by my beloved pencils, pencil crayons, markers, fine liners, etc.  They are my prized possessions.  They are special to me.  It’s like having a long lost relationship.  There was so much passion, love, intensity back in the day until all of it was lost as time went by.  But one day, that long long love will come back and rekindle the fire and continue the passion as if no time passed by at all.

So point of the story here?  Nothing is ever lost.  It just needs to be rekindled.  A passion and love never dies regardless of what it is and how long it’s been.  It will feel that much better when you get back to the groove again.

One Response to “Creativity Sitting”

  1. Cat says:

    That’s nice of you to take photos at your niece’s birthday party! I’m sure that’s really appreciated by your sister and brother-in-law 🙂 I have a bad habit of neglecting my hobbies on and off. Every time I get into one hobby, another gets neglected because I don’t balance them properly. Drawing and painting are things I want to get back into as well. It’s also been a several months since I last touched my sewing machine.

    Have you considered a project 365 or project 52 with your hobbies? I follow a Deviantart account who draws something every day, and I think it’s a nice challenge! I’m actually doing a project 52 right now with photography 🙂

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